Well I'm extremely PISSED off! Ok, if I get into an argument with someone, you can call and say just about ANYTHING to me... just.. NEVER... say "fuck you" because I'll start tweaking the hell out. And the reason for that specifically is because when my dad would drink when me and my older brother were younger and even today and we piss him off, he'll yell "fuck you!"and it makes me feel like shit. It makes me feel that way because he's literally the only man I TRULY respect, so whenever anyone says that and means it, I feel like shit just like when my dad says it. ANYWAY! I was on the phone last night and I was having an argument with one of my friends and I said "fuck you" and I know, get what you give, but I've told her she can call me any name or say anything except that and she chose JUST the 2 words to make me tweak.
That's all I got for now.....
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
There's Always Something.....
Well, right when I thought my life was gonna be free of fighting/arguing/things like that. More shit decides to come along.
Let me start this story by telling you another story, to help better explain. About a year or so ago I met a girl. Me and her never really hung out or talked for a while, but when we did, we started to like each other... and eventually... fell in love I guess. We didn't date or anything, she was engaged to some guy in jail and I was almost in a serious relationship. So... it was more like it was friends with benefits (strings attached). It may seem like nothing new, but it wasn't just a "lay" and a "Oh, see you tomorrow at school" it was more, we spent hours on the phone, hours hanging out. We'd make each other smile and laugh unlike anyone else had done before. And I broke up with my girl at the time to wait for her to break up with the Jail-bird. Never happened... I waited 3 months before I said I was done waiting and got into the the relationship I have right now. I swear to GOD I think she waited to tell me she broke up with the Jail-bird, because she didn't tell me for a month until I was IN a relationship! But the thing is she doesn't wanna let me go even IF I'm with someone... so I told her that she needed to get over it (not the best choice on my part). It sparked a 2 1/2 hour long fight of her yelling at me, then having me make a smart-ass remark because, well... that's just who I am.
But anyway! Down to business... the real bull-shit going on right now is she keeps telling me she's just a whore who wants to ruin my happiness and things like that. And even as JUST her friend, I tell her it's fine and she's not a whore. Now she's saying she's done talking to me, well she said that in a long ass message the other night... over the weekend, and she tried to confront me about today and I just walked off, she followed me and said she wanted to tell me in person, I turned around and kinda snapped at her and said, "What difference does it make in person or over the fucking internet! It still hurts!" And well she ran away, so I'm probably gonna be dealing with this shit all day from her sister and her best-friends... -sigh- Life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best... -_-
Let me start this story by telling you another story, to help better explain. About a year or so ago I met a girl. Me and her never really hung out or talked for a while, but when we did, we started to like each other... and eventually... fell in love I guess. We didn't date or anything, she was engaged to some guy in jail and I was almost in a serious relationship. So... it was more like it was friends with benefits (strings attached). It may seem like nothing new, but it wasn't just a "lay" and a "Oh, see you tomorrow at school" it was more, we spent hours on the phone, hours hanging out. We'd make each other smile and laugh unlike anyone else had done before. And I broke up with my girl at the time to wait for her to break up with the Jail-bird. Never happened... I waited 3 months before I said I was done waiting and got into the the relationship I have right now. I swear to GOD I think she waited to tell me she broke up with the Jail-bird, because she didn't tell me for a month until I was IN a relationship! But the thing is she doesn't wanna let me go even IF I'm with someone... so I told her that she needed to get over it (not the best choice on my part). It sparked a 2 1/2 hour long fight of her yelling at me, then having me make a smart-ass remark because, well... that's just who I am.
But anyway! Down to business... the real bull-shit going on right now is she keeps telling me she's just a whore who wants to ruin my happiness and things like that. And even as JUST her friend, I tell her it's fine and she's not a whore. Now she's saying she's done talking to me, well she said that in a long ass message the other night... over the weekend, and she tried to confront me about today and I just walked off, she followed me and said she wanted to tell me in person, I turned around and kinda snapped at her and said, "What difference does it make in person or over the fucking internet! It still hurts!" And well she ran away, so I'm probably gonna be dealing with this shit all day from her sister and her best-friends... -sigh- Life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best... -_-
Friday, October 21, 2011
UGH!
Ergh! I don't exactly know why, but life is so damn dull, boring, and just sucks for some reason.
On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.
We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD
Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).
My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"
I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-
On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.
We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD
Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).
My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"
I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Erika
Hmm... well... life seems to be taking an unexpected turn on ME!
There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.
My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!
Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...
But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"
Either way... it's partly his fault.
I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.
Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?
Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!
There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.
My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!
Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...
But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"
Either way... it's partly his fault.
I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.
Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?
Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Fuck... MY... LIFE!
Well... I got a call last night form my grandfather.... he has cancer... fuck my life... I smoked like 15 cigarettes in like an hour! HA! Like that's gonna help anything. Oh well... we all gotta die someday...oh wait... I'm a Juggalo, I CAN'T DIE! I wish life was like that.
But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.
"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?
Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.
GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-
I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"
Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later
But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.
"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?
Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.
GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-
I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"
Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later
Friday, October 14, 2011
Bored
Well it's been quite some time since I've posted a blog... a lot of shit's happened... I'm not with Marie anymore and this girl, Harriett, is kind of obsessed with me... the thing that pisses ME is the fact that she got pissed off at me for getting drunk and laid... BUT, here's the kicker, she thinks it's perfectly fine to be technically still engaged to some dude in jail and sleep and mess around with me... and I'm telling her today that I'm just done with all this shit. I'm only a junior and I DO NOT FUCKING NEED THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!
I FUCKING HATE DRAMA!
But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!
... that is all...
I FUCKING HATE DRAMA!
But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!
... that is all...
Friday, June 3, 2011
Denn in diesem Leben ist es essen ... oder gegessen. Die Welt ist ein Teufelskreis Ort jetzt und Sie müssen bereit sein für alles, was Ihr den Weg kommt. Selbst wenn es bedeutet, Mord ... was bestimmt dein sein ist euer, und niemand hat das Recht, sie von Ihnen oder eigene nehmen ... so nehmen Sie es, solange du kannst.
Nehmen Sie niemals die freie Fahrt in Ihrem eigenen Leben. Lebe das Leben am Rande und dass es so bleibt. Nie für zweite oder dritte begleichen! Fahren Sie geradeaus für das Gold!
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