UGH!

Ergh! I don't exactly know why, but life is so damn dull, boring, and just sucks for some reason.

On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.


We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD


Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).

My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"

I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-

Erika

Hmm... well... life seems to be taking an unexpected turn on ME!

There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.

My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!

Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...

But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"

Either way... it's partly his fault.

I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.

Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?

Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!

Fuck... MY... LIFE!

Well... I got a call last night form my grandfather.... he has cancer... fuck my life... I smoked like 15 cigarettes in like an hour! HA! Like that's gonna help anything. Oh well... we all gotta die someday...oh wait... I'm a Juggalo, I CAN'T DIE! I wish life was like that.

But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.

"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?

Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.

GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-

I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"

Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later

Bored

Well it's been quite some time since I've posted a blog... a lot of shit's happened... I'm not with Marie anymore and this girl, Harriett, is kind of obsessed with me... the thing that pisses ME is the fact that she got pissed off  at me for getting drunk and laid... BUT, here's the kicker, she thinks it's perfectly fine to be technically still engaged to some dude in jail and sleep and mess around with me... and I'm telling her today that I'm just done with all this shit. I'm only a junior and I DO NOT FUCKING NEED THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!


 I FUCKING HATE DRAMA! 


But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!


... that is all...