UGH!

Ergh! I don't exactly know why, but life is so damn dull, boring, and just sucks for some reason.

On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.


We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD


Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).

My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"

I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-

Erika

Hmm... well... life seems to be taking an unexpected turn on ME!

There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.

My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!

Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...

But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"

Either way... it's partly his fault.

I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.

Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?

Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!

Fuck... MY... LIFE!

Well... I got a call last night form my grandfather.... he has cancer... fuck my life... I smoked like 15 cigarettes in like an hour! HA! Like that's gonna help anything. Oh well... we all gotta die someday...oh wait... I'm a Juggalo, I CAN'T DIE! I wish life was like that.

But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.

"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?

Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.

GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-

I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"

Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later

Bored

Well it's been quite some time since I've posted a blog... a lot of shit's happened... I'm not with Marie anymore and this girl, Harriett, is kind of obsessed with me... the thing that pisses ME is the fact that she got pissed off  at me for getting drunk and laid... BUT, here's the kicker, she thinks it's perfectly fine to be technically still engaged to some dude in jail and sleep and mess around with me... and I'm telling her today that I'm just done with all this shit. I'm only a junior and I DO NOT FUCKING NEED THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!


 I FUCKING HATE DRAMA! 


But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!


... that is all...

Nun ja. Wenn das Leben gibt Ihnen nichts ... Sie nehmen, was Sie wollen und fühlen Keine Reue, für die es jemals gehört hatte. Sie nehmen es selbst in die Bälle und nehmen Sie es!

Denn in diesem Leben ist es essen ... oder gegessen. Die Welt ist ein Teufelskreis Ort jetzt und Sie müssen bereit sein für alles, was Ihr den Weg kommt. Selbst wenn es bedeutet, Mord ... was bestimmt dein sein ist euer, und niemand hat das Recht, sie von Ihnen oder eigene nehmen ... so nehmen Sie es, solange du kannst.

Nehmen Sie niemals die freie Fahrt in Ihrem eigenen Leben. Lebe das Leben am Rande und dass es so bleibt. Nie für zweite oder dritte begleichen! Fahren Sie geradeaus für das Gold!

Juggalo II

Well, never really got to finish the Juggalo thing... but like I said last time. It's more of a life choice than anything else. Mainly if you're a Juggalo, it's from ICP (Insane Clown Posse), but there are others like Twiztid, Blaze, AMB (Axe Murder Boys), Trixie Doll, ABK (Any Body Killa) and Dark Lotus. The Juggalo life-style basically is do what you want, when you want, and don't give a fuck who cares. And never forget about the family... and remember... once a Juggalo... always a Juggalo. You can't escape that shit, y'know what I mean?

But guys aren't the only one's who can be apart of the family... what kinda sense would THAT make? If a girl is part of the family, she is known as a Juggalette.







Well gotta go for now, 1st period's almost over!

Never know

Bre thinks I'm gonna be the next columbine... fuck the what? I mean, yeah I'm a bit psychopathic, but still... well, if I truly WANTED to I could... got like 5 guns in my room along with the knives, a scalpel from Art and Bio... I can be the next Dr. Death. (He was a Nazi experimenter/scientists/fucked up evil motherfucker!) Also I have some what of a knowledge of the human anatomy.

Well, school's over in about two weeks... it's gonna be a long summer. It's gonna suck being away from a lot of my friends. I'm really gonna miss Bre, Cassie, Melissa, and Dani... 7th period in the library has become quite... routine. I'm gonna miss it a lot. They may not be friends I hang out with outside of school... but for in-school friends... I wouldn't choose anyone else.

I don't know how often I'll be on in the summer. I hope everyone keeps their blogs updated, I'll try my hardest to keep mine that way.

-sigh- It's been a long year everyone. I hope when I come back in the fall, all my friends will still be here.

Hoping to have my permit at least by the time I come back. Then I'll have my license soon after, then I can drive up and see Marie ANY time I want to instead of having to wait for a ride 5 days later from when I was supposed to get a ride, y'know what I mean? Plus it'd just be nice to be able to drive where ever when ever I wanted to leave or if I wanted to go on a road trip with my friends.

Which reminds me. Me, Brittney, Katie, Marie, and Mitchell plan on going on a trip up to Mitchell's grandparents camp this summer... can anyone say "alcohol" ? I think yes... I'm gonna get FUCKED UP! Because I am gonna be getting the alcohol, so if I'M NOT DRUNK! I'M KILLING SOMEONE!

I'm not getting Jewed if I'm the one getting the booze. I'm not 21, but I know people...

Gotta go for now, bye