Well I'm extremely PISSED off! Ok, if I get into an argument with someone, you can call and say just about ANYTHING to me... just.. NEVER... say "fuck you" because I'll start tweaking the hell out. And the reason for that specifically is because when my dad would drink when me and my older brother were younger and even today and we piss him off, he'll yell "fuck you!"and it makes me feel like shit. It makes me feel that way because he's literally the only man I TRULY respect, so whenever anyone says that and means it, I feel like shit just like when my dad says it. ANYWAY! I was on the phone last night and I was having an argument with one of my friends and I said "fuck you" and I know, get what you give, but I've told her she can call me any name or say anything except that and she chose JUST the 2 words to make me tweak.
That's all I got for now.....
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
There's Always Something.....
Well, right when I thought my life was gonna be free of fighting/arguing/things like that. More shit decides to come along.
Let me start this story by telling you another story, to help better explain. About a year or so ago I met a girl. Me and her never really hung out or talked for a while, but when we did, we started to like each other... and eventually... fell in love I guess. We didn't date or anything, she was engaged to some guy in jail and I was almost in a serious relationship. So... it was more like it was friends with benefits (strings attached). It may seem like nothing new, but it wasn't just a "lay" and a "Oh, see you tomorrow at school" it was more, we spent hours on the phone, hours hanging out. We'd make each other smile and laugh unlike anyone else had done before. And I broke up with my girl at the time to wait for her to break up with the Jail-bird. Never happened... I waited 3 months before I said I was done waiting and got into the the relationship I have right now. I swear to GOD I think she waited to tell me she broke up with the Jail-bird, because she didn't tell me for a month until I was IN a relationship! But the thing is she doesn't wanna let me go even IF I'm with someone... so I told her that she needed to get over it (not the best choice on my part). It sparked a 2 1/2 hour long fight of her yelling at me, then having me make a smart-ass remark because, well... that's just who I am.
But anyway! Down to business... the real bull-shit going on right now is she keeps telling me she's just a whore who wants to ruin my happiness and things like that. And even as JUST her friend, I tell her it's fine and she's not a whore. Now she's saying she's done talking to me, well she said that in a long ass message the other night... over the weekend, and she tried to confront me about today and I just walked off, she followed me and said she wanted to tell me in person, I turned around and kinda snapped at her and said, "What difference does it make in person or over the fucking internet! It still hurts!" And well she ran away, so I'm probably gonna be dealing with this shit all day from her sister and her best-friends... -sigh- Life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best... -_-
Let me start this story by telling you another story, to help better explain. About a year or so ago I met a girl. Me and her never really hung out or talked for a while, but when we did, we started to like each other... and eventually... fell in love I guess. We didn't date or anything, she was engaged to some guy in jail and I was almost in a serious relationship. So... it was more like it was friends with benefits (strings attached). It may seem like nothing new, but it wasn't just a "lay" and a "Oh, see you tomorrow at school" it was more, we spent hours on the phone, hours hanging out. We'd make each other smile and laugh unlike anyone else had done before. And I broke up with my girl at the time to wait for her to break up with the Jail-bird. Never happened... I waited 3 months before I said I was done waiting and got into the the relationship I have right now. I swear to GOD I think she waited to tell me she broke up with the Jail-bird, because she didn't tell me for a month until I was IN a relationship! But the thing is she doesn't wanna let me go even IF I'm with someone... so I told her that she needed to get over it (not the best choice on my part). It sparked a 2 1/2 hour long fight of her yelling at me, then having me make a smart-ass remark because, well... that's just who I am.
But anyway! Down to business... the real bull-shit going on right now is she keeps telling me she's just a whore who wants to ruin my happiness and things like that. And even as JUST her friend, I tell her it's fine and she's not a whore. Now she's saying she's done talking to me, well she said that in a long ass message the other night... over the weekend, and she tried to confront me about today and I just walked off, she followed me and said she wanted to tell me in person, I turned around and kinda snapped at her and said, "What difference does it make in person or over the fucking internet! It still hurts!" And well she ran away, so I'm probably gonna be dealing with this shit all day from her sister and her best-friends... -sigh- Life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best... -_-
Friday, October 21, 2011
UGH!
Ergh! I don't exactly know why, but life is so damn dull, boring, and just sucks for some reason.
On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.
We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD
Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).
My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"
I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-
On a bright side, it's gonna be Halloween next week, well, a little over a week but you get my point. My friend Patrick and I are going as Juggalo's... well we ARE, we're just going to be painting our faces... it's hard to find a store that sells GOOD face paint in a town like Lisbon/Lisbon Falls.
We plan on (during that day of Halloween) meeting each other somewhere, like a midpoint between our houses and painting our faces and walking around town all day and wait till later that night so we can hang with like 10 or so other people. That's gonna be fun, and we're gonna be singing ICP lyrics all fucking day! XD
Hmmm... also though, another group of my friends want me to goes as BVB army with them... but I've been a Juggalo WAY longer than I've been listening to Black Veil Brides. So I don't really know... it's kind of a hard decision... I already made plans with the whole BVB Army thing with a few people... but that's more just like a band that we wanna be like... being a Juggalo... is a way of life (if you wanna call it that).
My friend Ronelle thinks that I'd look better with ICP face paint... I don't know if I'm gonna go with Violent J's or my own original design... Ronelle says "Fuck the design, go with Violent J's!"
I don't really know... I'll figure it out -_-
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Erika
Hmm... well... life seems to be taking an unexpected turn on ME!
There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.
My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!
Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...
But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"
Either way... it's partly his fault.
I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.
Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?
Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!
There's a girl I've been taking to on previous posts... Erika. She's a Juggalette... felt like I needed to mention that for some reason... why... I have not a clue. Anyway, me and her have been talking for maybe a week and we already plan on getting together. Yes I know, "That's stupid" but we've talked on the phone like every night for like 3 or so hours just talk about stuff, getting to know each other and what-not.
My best friend Patrick and I kind of agree that there is no such thing as a girl coming strong onto me... well... there IS!
Like... hmmm, I don't know how to explain it... I just really like her... we're like REALLY alike... oh... and my friend Andrew doesn't like it...
But here's the kicker... he's basically the one who set us up, now he's complaining that me and her are talking TOO much. I'm like "Really bro... you were a major part in this"! And then he'll be all like "Well I didn't expect you two to like each other so fast"
Either way... it's partly his fault.
I just hope that maybe things between Erika and I work out... and plus... she's moving to Lisbon soon... well... like in December, and it's like the end of October. So like 2 or so more months and then she should live in Lisbon, and I'm gonna give her some info on some of the house around so maybe that'll help.
Hmmm... I really hope after we start like REALLY hanging out, that I still like her and that she's the same person I know on the phone, y'know what I mean?
Well I gotta go, good-bye for now!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Fuck... MY... LIFE!
Well... I got a call last night form my grandfather.... he has cancer... fuck my life... I smoked like 15 cigarettes in like an hour! HA! Like that's gonna help anything. Oh well... we all gotta die someday...oh wait... I'm a Juggalo, I CAN'T DIE! I wish life was like that.
But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.
"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?
Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.
GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-
I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"
Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later
But yeah, life's just fucked up and confusing right now. So nothings really changed all that much.
"Life's a bitch then ya die, fuck the world, let's all get high!" right?
Other than life sucking, it's ok... a song by Jamie Madrox made me cry... it was called "Tear Jerker" and it was talking in one part about how he rarely sees his dad and stuff like that and I could relate to that... soooo yeah.
GRRRR! I'm pissed also because there are these two girls that like me and I'm like.... Erika, Bri, Erika, Bri... GAH! Bri's an ex of mine but I still love her... but she has a boyfriend, Erika just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she wants to take time off dating before she can trust a guy again, they're both Juggalette's... if they fight... this should be interesting. It's one of those "now matter what I do, someone's gonna be pissed at me" situations. -_-
I think I'm gonna go for Erika because Bri... honestly... she'd come back to me no matter WHAT I did... we dated 2-3 years ago and she never forgot or loving me :) She told me on the phone last night "You never forget your first love" and then, in my head, it hit me, "She loves you, you fucking retard... she'd do anything to get back with you! She wants to be with you, stop being a fucking nimrod!"
Erika likes me and all that, but she hasn't even met me in person... which is kinda... clingy I guess you could say... well I gotta go... class is about to end... will finish this later
Friday, October 14, 2011
Bored
Well it's been quite some time since I've posted a blog... a lot of shit's happened... I'm not with Marie anymore and this girl, Harriett, is kind of obsessed with me... the thing that pisses ME is the fact that she got pissed off at me for getting drunk and laid... BUT, here's the kicker, she thinks it's perfectly fine to be technically still engaged to some dude in jail and sleep and mess around with me... and I'm telling her today that I'm just done with all this shit. I'm only a junior and I DO NOT FUCKING NEED THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!!
I FUCKING HATE DRAMA!
But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!
... that is all...
I FUCKING HATE DRAMA!
But what are ya gonna do for a klondike bar? :/ I know what I'd do....... stab a fucking bitch in the neck!!!!!
... that is all...
Friday, June 3, 2011
Denn in diesem Leben ist es essen ... oder gegessen. Die Welt ist ein Teufelskreis Ort jetzt und Sie müssen bereit sein für alles, was Ihr den Weg kommt. Selbst wenn es bedeutet, Mord ... was bestimmt dein sein ist euer, und niemand hat das Recht, sie von Ihnen oder eigene nehmen ... so nehmen Sie es, solange du kannst.
Nehmen Sie niemals die freie Fahrt in Ihrem eigenen Leben. Lebe das Leben am Rande und dass es so bleibt. Nie für zweite oder dritte begleichen! Fahren Sie geradeaus für das Gold!
Juggalo II
Well gotta go for now, 1st period's almost over!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Never know
Bre thinks I'm gonna be the next columbine... fuck the what? I mean, yeah I'm a bit psychopathic, but still... well, if I truly WANTED to I could... got like 5 guns in my room along with the knives, a scalpel from Art and Bio... I can be the next Dr. Death. (He was a Nazi experimenter/scientists/fucked up evil motherfucker!) Also I have some what of a knowledge of the human anatomy.
Well, school's over in about two weeks... it's gonna be a long summer. It's gonna suck being away from a lot of my friends. I'm really gonna miss Bre, Cassie, Melissa, and Dani... 7th period in the library has become quite... routine. I'm gonna miss it a lot. They may not be friends I hang out with outside of school... but for in-school friends... I wouldn't choose anyone else.
I don't know how often I'll be on in the summer. I hope everyone keeps their blogs updated, I'll try my hardest to keep mine that way.
-sigh- It's been a long year everyone. I hope when I come back in the fall, all my friends will still be here.
Hoping to have my permit at least by the time I come back. Then I'll have my license soon after, then I can drive up and see Marie ANY time I want to instead of having to wait for a ride 5 days later from when I was supposed to get a ride, y'know what I mean? Plus it'd just be nice to be able to drive where ever when ever I wanted to leave or if I wanted to go on a road trip with my friends.
Which reminds me. Me, Brittney, Katie, Marie, and Mitchell plan on going on a trip up to Mitchell's grandparents camp this summer... can anyone say "alcohol" ? I think yes... I'm gonna get FUCKED UP! Because I am gonna be getting the alcohol, so if I'M NOT DRUNK! I'M KILLING SOMEONE!
I'm not getting Jewed if I'm the one getting the booze. I'm not 21, but I know people...
Gotta go for now, bye
Well, school's over in about two weeks... it's gonna be a long summer. It's gonna suck being away from a lot of my friends. I'm really gonna miss Bre, Cassie, Melissa, and Dani... 7th period in the library has become quite... routine. I'm gonna miss it a lot. They may not be friends I hang out with outside of school... but for in-school friends... I wouldn't choose anyone else.
I don't know how often I'll be on in the summer. I hope everyone keeps their blogs updated, I'll try my hardest to keep mine that way.
-sigh- It's been a long year everyone. I hope when I come back in the fall, all my friends will still be here.
Hoping to have my permit at least by the time I come back. Then I'll have my license soon after, then I can drive up and see Marie ANY time I want to instead of having to wait for a ride 5 days later from when I was supposed to get a ride, y'know what I mean? Plus it'd just be nice to be able to drive where ever when ever I wanted to leave or if I wanted to go on a road trip with my friends.
Which reminds me. Me, Brittney, Katie, Marie, and Mitchell plan on going on a trip up to Mitchell's grandparents camp this summer... can anyone say "alcohol" ? I think yes... I'm gonna get FUCKED UP! Because I am gonna be getting the alcohol, so if I'M NOT DRUNK! I'M KILLING SOMEONE!
I'm not getting Jewed if I'm the one getting the booze. I'm not 21, but I know people...
Gotta go for now, bye
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Zombie Apocalypse II
Well... let's see... a part two... I left off with melee weapons yesterday. Today... I think I'll get a little situational...
Say you and your friends are running from a horde and you come to a cliff edge with a river below... you can either, A; Jump off and into the waters below... B; Try to climb down the sheer cliff face... or C; Turn around, unload all your ammo and try to live.... Me personally I'd unload all my ammo and if there were some left, THEN I'd proceed to jump off the cliff.
Ok... another situation... you and a friend have snipers and shotguns, but you only have a few shots with the snipers and you're 100 yards from... say 50 zombies... you can either try to unload the snipers into the crowd and hope you'd have enough time to pick up your shotgun and fire at the one's closest... or just forget the snipers and run in guns-a-blazing. I'd shoot them with the snipers first and when they got to about 20-30 yards from me (regardless if the sniper still had ammo) drop the sniper, pick up the shotgun and blast away... plus I'm more of a shotgun guy personally.
And my weapon set up in the zombie apocalypse would be a Spas-12...
2 MW2's
A FN FAL on my other side slung over my shoulder
And a bowie knife to use for melee (would nomrally use a chainsaw, but I already got like 40 pounds on me)
And I've had my hunters safety lisence since I was 10... I know how to work a gun, I can dissemble and RE-assemble guns... and knives... hehe... skinning deer pays off SOMEWHERE! XD
Say you and your friends are running from a horde and you come to a cliff edge with a river below... you can either, A; Jump off and into the waters below... B; Try to climb down the sheer cliff face... or C; Turn around, unload all your ammo and try to live.... Me personally I'd unload all my ammo and if there were some left, THEN I'd proceed to jump off the cliff.
Ok... another situation... you and a friend have snipers and shotguns, but you only have a few shots with the snipers and you're 100 yards from... say 50 zombies... you can either try to unload the snipers into the crowd and hope you'd have enough time to pick up your shotgun and fire at the one's closest... or just forget the snipers and run in guns-a-blazing. I'd shoot them with the snipers first and when they got to about 20-30 yards from me (regardless if the sniper still had ammo) drop the sniper, pick up the shotgun and blast away... plus I'm more of a shotgun guy personally.
And I've had my hunters safety lisence since I was 10... I know how to work a gun, I can dissemble and RE-assemble guns... and knives... hehe... skinning deer pays off SOMEWHERE! XD
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Zombie Apocalypse I
I certainly can't wait for it to happen... I got a few people... zombie or not... that I want dead. The apocalypse will just give me the excuse to kill them.I mean a few I have personal things against... others... well they've fucked with my family/friends one too many times.
Well... let's see... the first thing that I'M going to do during the zombie apocalypse is get a loaded gun. Let me just write a list;
1. Get a loaded gun
2. Make sure my family is fine
3. Call up friends and tell them to hold out for as long as possible
4. Get car/truck (whichever would have more room) and get friends
5. Go to store, take as many canned goods as possible (leave perishables)
6. Go to a gun store, stock up on ammo and guns
7. Go to a large building and barricade the doors and first floor windows. (bring in guns and food)
8. Make sure everyone knows how to use their weapon
9. If split up, 3 to a group
10. Clear out building and get to the roof-top
11. Once on the roof top, start killing them all below
12. If at all possible, send out signal for military help
13.Once the area is at least cleared, drive through town to lure them out
14. Once lured, kill off as many as possible
isn't she beautiful?
Well school's almost over... will write a part II tomorrow
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Alone
I'll lie here and die alone
Am I here for a reason
Or am I just more flesh and bone?
You never helped me up when I fell
No sound over the constant bell
Stuck behind the bars of this cell
SOMEONE PLEASE RELEASE ME FROM THIS HELL
I'll forever burn
Each day, taking my turn
Into the cauldron
The souls they churn
These two wrists bleed
Can't you see
The cause has been of greed
Now I no longer be
But I will not leave you be
Your soul shave be dragged with me
And shall suffer for eternity
Death be calling my name?
Before the beginning of 1st period, I was walking with a friend and my chest hurt and i blacked-out for a sec and fell against the lockers. I don't fucking know what's going on. I think it's just some weird ass pain. My friend thinks it might be signs of a soon-to-be heart-attack... me? Heart-attack? Yeah right, she's just paranoid.
But yeah, I mean my chest still hurts and all, but I don't think it's anything bad, just heart burn maybe?
Well I'm in the mood to write dark poetry/lyrics
Monday, May 23, 2011
School's coming to an end
Well... school's JUST ABOUT over for the year... when it starts up again, I'll be a Junior. I'm gonna miss some of the Seniors... my brother, Josh, Sam, and a lot of other people. Damn next school year's gonna suck without them. At least I'll still be able to talk to Bre, Cassie, Melissa, Zach, Dillon, and a lot of of friends. High School's going by really fast. Didn't expect it to go bye so fast. Man... this sucks. Next thing you know, I'm gonna be a Senior and leaving behind four of the best/worst years of my life.
The sad times... the laughing time... the crying times... the break-ups... the make-ups... the loving times... the bromances... the happy times... the boring times...the hyper/excited times...
Well, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna pass 3 outta 5 classes... and yeah, even if you put that in percentage, I still failed. Next year, I'm just gonna do READ 180... I'll have a different Geometry teacher... here's to hope -_-
Well, I'm the class of 2013, and I found a quote that made me smile....
I couldn't stop smiling and I can't stop smiling.
Well I don't know how many more post I'll be able to get in before they shut down the library, but I'll try to keep everyone posted over the summer!
Later everyone!
The sad times... the laughing time... the crying times... the break-ups... the make-ups... the loving times... the bromances... the happy times... the boring times...the hyper/excited times...
Well, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna pass 3 outta 5 classes... and yeah, even if you put that in percentage, I still failed. Next year, I'm just gonna do READ 180... I'll have a different Geometry teacher... here's to hope -_-
Well, I'm the class of 2013, and I found a quote that made me smile....
We're so fresh
We're so cool
Class of 2013 will always rule!
Party hard and Rock N' Roll
We're the class you can't control
Hardcore legit!
We're the shit!
We got poise
We got swag
I don't mean to brag
You think you got class?
Well 2013'll kick your ass!
I couldn't stop smiling and I can't stop smiling.
Well I don't know how many more post I'll be able to get in before they shut down the library, but I'll try to keep everyone posted over the summer!
Later everyone!
Friday, May 20, 2011
I dont know...
Well Cassie wants me to write a blog because I haven't written sense we've been having testing.
Yesterday I impaled myself with a colored pencil and tore more skin off than I had wanted to. Blood went everywhere. And when I was asked WHY I did it, I replied, "I was showing the class an example of a masochist" and I chuckled.
Today at lunch, Alex Bennet tried to start shit with me and when I turned around there were5 freshies about 3 inches SHORTER than me right behind me... my EXACT thoughts; "This is gonna be a LLLOOOOONNNNNGGGG lunch" but they ended up walking away. Everyone was telling me I should've kicked all their asses... probably should've. I fucking HATE little bitches like him who run their face!
THEN him and a few other freshmen told one of my good friends that I had called him a bitch,which I didn't they just thought it'd be funny to see what he'd do, he laughed at them.
But yea, enough of the drama. I'm not going to pass 2 outta my 5 classes and I'm getting a summer job and more than likely going to driver's ed! WOO-HOO! Me behind the wheel of a car!
To be honest, I'm quite good at the wheel, drove my 1st vehicle at 6, yeah my dad was working the pedals but the wheel was ALL mine. But by the time this is said and done, I'll be outta money :/ Son of a bitch -_-
The past few weekends me and Marie have been hanging out. It's really awesome, life's been good except for a little drama B.S. here and there.
Me, Dillon, and Zach are planning on starting a band soon. We're thinking "This Bleeding Heart" for the name. I will be the bassists/deep screamo, Zach would be the drummer/vocalist, and Dillon would be guitar/high screamo.
Well I'm done with this....
Yesterday I impaled myself with a colored pencil and tore more skin off than I had wanted to. Blood went everywhere. And when I was asked WHY I did it, I replied, "I was showing the class an example of a masochist" and I chuckled.
Today at lunch, Alex Bennet tried to start shit with me and when I turned around there were5 freshies about 3 inches SHORTER than me right behind me... my EXACT thoughts; "This is gonna be a LLLOOOOONNNNNGGGG lunch" but they ended up walking away. Everyone was telling me I should've kicked all their asses... probably should've. I fucking HATE little bitches like him who run their face!
THEN him and a few other freshmen told one of my good friends that I had called him a bitch,which I didn't they just thought it'd be funny to see what he'd do, he laughed at them.
But yea, enough of the drama. I'm not going to pass 2 outta my 5 classes and I'm getting a summer job and more than likely going to driver's ed! WOO-HOO! Me behind the wheel of a car!
To be honest, I'm quite good at the wheel, drove my 1st vehicle at 6, yeah my dad was working the pedals but the wheel was ALL mine. But by the time this is said and done, I'll be outta money :/ Son of a bitch -_-
The past few weekends me and Marie have been hanging out. It's really awesome, life's been good except for a little drama B.S. here and there.
Me, Dillon, and Zach are planning on starting a band soon. We're thinking "This Bleeding Heart" for the name. I will be the bassists/deep screamo, Zach would be the drummer/vocalist, and Dillon would be guitar/high screamo.
Well I'm done with this....
Friday, May 13, 2011
Me: Well, well, well... 'tis has been a while blog
Blog: Indeed it as... too long
Me: Shall we fight now?
Blog: Only if you're prepared to die
Me: Oh, it is not me whom will be dead by the end of this....
OK! Sorry about that... felt like writing something randomly EPIC! Well life's been pretty much the same. Drugs and alcohol. Hmmm... going to pick up Marie this weekend. She's staying in MY town this time... my friends are going to embarrass the FUCK outta me! I don't know which friends I want her to met, I know Zach and Dillon will met her, but theyz my bro's.
Well I went on a field trip the other day. When we went for lunch, we saw people carrying ONE large pizza for 6 people... WE GOT 3 LARGE'S FOR 5 PEOPLE! Me and Adam each had 8 pieces... which is a whole pizza. I had half a 2 liter and a medium milkshake. I DID NOT PUKE! I'MMA TANK BITCHES! XD
Blog: Indeed it as... too long
Me: Shall we fight now?
Blog: Only if you're prepared to die
Me: Oh, it is not me whom will be dead by the end of this....
OK! Sorry about that... felt like writing something randomly EPIC! Well life's been pretty much the same. Drugs and alcohol. Hmmm... going to pick up Marie this weekend. She's staying in MY town this time... my friends are going to embarrass the FUCK outta me! I don't know which friends I want her to met, I know Zach and Dillon will met her, but theyz my bro's.
Well I went on a field trip the other day. When we went for lunch, we saw people carrying ONE large pizza for 6 people... WE GOT 3 LARGE'S FOR 5 PEOPLE! Me and Adam each had 8 pieces... which is a whole pizza. I had half a 2 liter and a medium milkshake. I DID NOT PUKE! I'MMA TANK BITCHES! XD
Monday, May 2, 2011
Mehh
Well, just this past weekend I went up to Marie's house on Friday and stayed til Sunday. The only time we weren't together was when we had to use the bathroom or if I had to go for a smoke break, but then again, she kinda smokes.
I honestly hopes she doesn't smoke a lot like I do, because I don't want anything to happen to her, if anything did and I found out it was because I smoked and got her to smoke, I'd never live it down... especially if she died :/
We hung out and cuddled most of the time... she's a cuddle whore. But I'm not complaining. The funny thing is, her mom she couldn't sleep down stairs with me... they argued and it ended with Marie saying "I don't care what you say! I'm staying down stairs!" and sure enough, her mom came down in the middle of the night and we were PASSED-OUT together. Her mom apparently said she didn't even really care.
Her mom's pretty cool. She doesn't mind that I smoke pot, drink, and smoke cigarettes. Just can't drink/smoke pot around Marie, and I have to smoke outside... very funny, she's the first of a girlfriend's mom that is fine with what I do... quite funny to be honest. But me and her mom got along REALLY good to my surprise. Marie was talking about school and how she's gonna leave... her mom said no she wasn't, I agreed... and Marie did NOT like that AT ALL. I found it hilarious XD
So far, I've gotten along with ALL of her friends, even the gay one's that I think "look" at me. And her brother's pretty cool, he's about my age and me and him are chill. Her and her brother's friend, Eli, said that I was by far, Marie's best boyfriend and they had never seen her so happy before. And that made me feel good inside. Well, I gave her a Black Veil Brides shirt and I got a bracelet with my name she made and a picture she made for me, it's so cute!
On Saturday night, she wanted to stay up all night and watch movies and cuddle... she ended up falling asleep and I decided I wasn't gonna wake her up. She was mad at herself when she woke up. But I told her it was alright.
I was so SAD when I got dropped off back home... I was like "... -puts gun to head- -pulls trigger- -dies- ..." That's how sad I felt after she left. I wish I was still with her.
I miss her so much ):
I honestly hopes she doesn't smoke a lot like I do, because I don't want anything to happen to her, if anything did and I found out it was because I smoked and got her to smoke, I'd never live it down... especially if she died :/
We hung out and cuddled most of the time... she's a cuddle whore. But I'm not complaining. The funny thing is, her mom she couldn't sleep down stairs with me... they argued and it ended with Marie saying "I don't care what you say! I'm staying down stairs!" and sure enough, her mom came down in the middle of the night and we were PASSED-OUT together. Her mom apparently said she didn't even really care.
Her mom's pretty cool. She doesn't mind that I smoke pot, drink, and smoke cigarettes. Just can't drink/smoke pot around Marie, and I have to smoke outside... very funny, she's the first of a girlfriend's mom that is fine with what I do... quite funny to be honest. But me and her mom got along REALLY good to my surprise. Marie was talking about school and how she's gonna leave... her mom said no she wasn't, I agreed... and Marie did NOT like that AT ALL. I found it hilarious XD
So far, I've gotten along with ALL of her friends, even the gay one's that I think "look" at me. And her brother's pretty cool, he's about my age and me and him are chill. Her and her brother's friend, Eli, said that I was by far, Marie's best boyfriend and they had never seen her so happy before. And that made me feel good inside. Well, I gave her a Black Veil Brides shirt and I got a bracelet with my name she made and a picture she made for me, it's so cute!
On Saturday night, she wanted to stay up all night and watch movies and cuddle... she ended up falling asleep and I decided I wasn't gonna wake her up. She was mad at herself when she woke up. But I told her it was alright.
I was so SAD when I got dropped off back home... I was like "... -puts gun to head- -pulls trigger- -dies- ..." That's how sad I felt after she left. I wish I was still with her.
I miss her so much ):
Thursday, April 28, 2011
The Other Half Of My Vacation
Well... I know I wrote a blog about my vacation, but that was mainly focused on Marie.
I'm gonna write about when I was hanging with Zach and Nick, yea Marie and a few other people were there, but whatever.
I went up and hung out with Zach and Nick for a day and we needed drink and smoke... being us, we got it. We spent only ONE day not high... and that was Sunday because we had school in the morning on Monday... well actually we smoked a little bit.
Most likely though... oh wait, no, I smoked when I got to my friend's house!
Anyway... we probably went through... maybe... 10-15 packs of cigarettes this vacation... possibly some more. I think that's why I feel like shit so much... yeah, that's DEFINITELY why.
I'm gonna quit for a few days then, 'cause it's NOT good for me... well technically, there were mini cigars, so I thinks that's worse! O.o GOD! Why am I such a nim-rod! I'll be dead by like 20-25!
Oh well, "Life's a bitch, then you die! So FUCK THE WORLD! LET'S ALL GET HIGH!"
That's how I'm living and I intend to always stay that way!
Marie would like it if I quit though... like, smoking cigarettes/cigars... I honestly think I might. My friend Kassie doesn't like it either, she keeps calling me a "idiot" for it. If I get 10 friends I care about to want me to quit... I will... 2 down... 8 to go.
Well... how long will it take before 8 people ask me to quit... -thinks- ... well if Kassie spreads the word... DAMN IT! >.<
She irritates me in the friend way though
Anyway! Back to my original topic. We spent like 6 days or so in Buck-Field and we spent 2 days in Lewiston.
I'm gonna write about when I was hanging with Zach and Nick, yea Marie and a few other people were there, but whatever.
I went up and hung out with Zach and Nick for a day and we needed drink and smoke... being us, we got it. We spent only ONE day not high... and that was Sunday because we had school in the morning on Monday... well actually we smoked a little bit.
Most likely though... oh wait, no, I smoked when I got to my friend's house!
Anyway... we probably went through... maybe... 10-15 packs of cigarettes this vacation... possibly some more. I think that's why I feel like shit so much... yeah, that's DEFINITELY why.
I'm gonna quit for a few days then, 'cause it's NOT good for me... well technically, there were mini cigars, so I thinks that's worse! O.o GOD! Why am I such a nim-rod! I'll be dead by like 20-25!
Oh well, "Life's a bitch, then you die! So FUCK THE WORLD! LET'S ALL GET HIGH!"
That's how I'm living and I intend to always stay that way!
Marie would like it if I quit though... like, smoking cigarettes/cigars... I honestly think I might. My friend Kassie doesn't like it either, she keeps calling me a "idiot" for it. If I get 10 friends I care about to want me to quit... I will... 2 down... 8 to go.
Well... how long will it take before 8 people ask me to quit... -thinks- ... well if Kassie spreads the word... DAMN IT! >.<
She irritates me in the friend way though
Anyway! Back to my original topic. We spent like 6 days or so in Buck-Field and we spent 2 days in Lewiston.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Well I just wrote a love letter to my girlfriend this morning, but she lives in Bath and I live in Lisbon Falls... sent it to her on skype... still NO reply... but that's probably because she hasn't checked it, isn't she in for a REAL surprise. It's a really sweet and romantic thing... debating on putting it on here... FUCK IT! Why not!?
"Dear Marie,
I love you with all my heart. You're the only reason I chose to stay alive. I'd give everything up just to kiss you. I'd do anything just to hold you and be able to call you 'mine' again. I truly don't know why I feel this way. Maybe it's your smile, maybe it's your personality... or maybe it's the beautiful eyes... every time I look at them I get lost. I wish I could hold you through every bad moment... but I can't. Baby, I'm not gonna sugar-coat it, I'm telling you the truth. I wish I was always there for you to cry on my shoulder, I wish I could feel your pain and bleed for you. I'll love you 'til I'm dead in the ground. No one's gonna put my love down. I'll be there forever, but I can't promise it'll be the best, I'll make it what I can, but life has no guarantee’s... you should know that by now. But as long as I have you to hold in my arms, I know I can make it through, so can you? I'll carry you through the smoke and flame. When the world comes to end, I'll take your blame. I know I'm not the best... but I'll beat the rest. They promise this, that, and the world and don't come out with anything. I'd love to promise you everything, but I can't, so I'm not gonna lie. One thing I CAN promise is that I'll always try my best to never let you down.
I finally feel alive every time I see you. Every time I hear you say “I love you” I feel weak and just want to embrace the warm feeling I get inside. My heart used to be encased in ice and snow, but when you came along and brightened my day, the snow and ice melted and my heart started to beat again and every time our fingers intertwine, my heart races faster and faster.
Each day I die a little more inside, from the distance. But every time I hear your voice, all that life comes rushing back in and then some. You make me happy I’m alive, and for the first time in months, I don’t have to hide behind the fake smiles, because now they’re real.
I know I'm an ass-hole and a prick at times, but I'm only human... and we all make mistakes. I know my life style is very different than yours. My life is full of drugs and addictions! But when I met you, you became my drug... you became my addiction. I wish I could’ve been there every time someone broke your heart, so I could help you pick up the pieces and put them back together... I know you don't love me like I love you, but just having you in my life is enough for me... I'll never let you go... I promise, I'll love you forever and a day...
Love, Kenny Allisot"
Yea...well that took up a lot of ONE post, so yea... gonna go now
Violent K OUT!
"Dear Marie,
I love you with all my heart. You're the only reason I chose to stay alive. I'd give everything up just to kiss you. I'd do anything just to hold you and be able to call you 'mine' again. I truly don't know why I feel this way. Maybe it's your smile, maybe it's your personality... or maybe it's the beautiful eyes... every time I look at them I get lost. I wish I could hold you through every bad moment... but I can't. Baby, I'm not gonna sugar-coat it, I'm telling you the truth. I wish I was always there for you to cry on my shoulder, I wish I could feel your pain and bleed for you. I'll love you 'til I'm dead in the ground. No one's gonna put my love down. I'll be there forever, but I can't promise it'll be the best, I'll make it what I can, but life has no guarantee’s... you should know that by now. But as long as I have you to hold in my arms, I know I can make it through, so can you? I'll carry you through the smoke and flame. When the world comes to end, I'll take your blame. I know I'm not the best... but I'll beat the rest. They promise this, that, and the world and don't come out with anything. I'd love to promise you everything, but I can't, so I'm not gonna lie. One thing I CAN promise is that I'll always try my best to never let you down.
I finally feel alive every time I see you. Every time I hear you say “I love you” I feel weak and just want to embrace the warm feeling I get inside. My heart used to be encased in ice and snow, but when you came along and brightened my day, the snow and ice melted and my heart started to beat again and every time our fingers intertwine, my heart races faster and faster.
Each day I die a little more inside, from the distance. But every time I hear your voice, all that life comes rushing back in and then some. You make me happy I’m alive, and for the first time in months, I don’t have to hide behind the fake smiles, because now they’re real.
I know I'm an ass-hole and a prick at times, but I'm only human... and we all make mistakes. I know my life style is very different than yours. My life is full of drugs and addictions! But when I met you, you became my drug... you became my addiction. I wish I could’ve been there every time someone broke your heart, so I could help you pick up the pieces and put them back together... I know you don't love me like I love you, but just having you in my life is enough for me... I'll never let you go... I promise, I'll love you forever and a day...
Love, Kenny Allisot"
Yea...well that took up a lot of ONE post, so yea... gonna go now
Violent K OUT!
I Don't Get It
Ok... I DON'T GET IT! My girlfriend and I say we love each other, right? Yeah, that's good fine and great. But almost EVERY-time we're on the phone, she's always like "I'll get clingy" "I'm a very jealous person" "You'll get sick of me sooner or later, everyone does" DOES SHE NOT UNDERSTAND THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT CLINGY-NESS OR JEALOUSY? WE'RE HUMAN! WE'RE SUPPOSED TO FEEL THAT WAY!
I even get jealous, I can be clingy, we're only HUMAN y'know!
Now I'm writing a love letter to her, peace!
I even get jealous, I can be clingy, we're only HUMAN y'know!
Now I'm writing a love letter to her, peace!
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